:: I am single ::

Hey, I am single

Don't wanna mingle

Unless it's legal

Or else it's evil

There's only one girl

My wife, my angel

I am available but not for sale

Don't you ever expect me in your mail

There's only one story beneath this veil

It's modesty, and not an ad to hail

Woo me not because you will surely fail

You really really think I am that frail?

You're not a hammer and I'm not a nail

I don't want a boyfriend, he's such an ail

I would prefer to be stuck in a jail

But I'm free of you and your fairytale

If you want me then be the alpha male

Don't hide in your shell like a slimy snail

Be my husband, by Allah we stand still

.: acek sayang mak & ayah :.

After 100 days u leave me...day by day, I've been misisng u...everyday I miss u, in fact, I will cry everytime I think about you. What a great LOVE!!! Even if you are not around, even if you are not with me...I can still remember the old days that we spend together, I cannot forget the time when we were together, I will recall back all our good days before. I miss you so much...

Now, I only have MAK by my side. I will take care of MAK for the rest of my life...

:: materialistik ::

Memiliki rumah yang besar & kereta yang best, pastinya menjadi idaman semua orang. Best kot ada rumah besar, complete sume ada kat dalam rumah tu...kalo ada kereta yang best, bole jalan ramai2, sumbat je berapa ramai pun..kan best travel ramai2..hehehehe...

Actually, aku memang minta giler dgn ALPHARD...xkesah la kereta canggih mana pun yang ada kat pasaran..hanya ALPHARD yang menjadi pujaan hatiku..hohohoho...aku pun tak tahu sejak biler aku minta ALPHARD..tapi, yang pasti aku memang ada memasang angan2 untuk memilikinya suatu hari nanti.

InsyaAllah...boleh jalan2 satu keluarga, kan meriah tu..hehehehe...aku pernah cakap pada kawan2 aku, aku akan kje kuat sampai aku mampu beli ALPHARD...hahahahaha...(tapi aku xbgtau kat En. Helmi, mana tau kot2 En. Helmi nak belikan utk aku ke kan..) adakah mempunyai keinginan untuk memiliki kereta mewah seperti ALPHARD aku akan dilabel sebagai PEREMPUAN MATERIALISTIK?? tak kot sbb yang akan berusaha untuk mendapatkannya...bukannya mengharapkan daripada org lain..ye tak??hehehehe...

Pernah suatu hari aku berkata pada diri sendiri, bila aku da kahwin...aku yang akan beli APLHARD utk kegunaan keluarga dan aku nak suami aku membeli MOTOR BESAR sbb aku mmg suka gler tgk org naik motor besar kalo jalan2 kat highway tu..tapi bukan aku yg bwk...(ada pengalaman jatuh motor, tu pasal xnak bawak)...suami aku yg kena bwk..aku dok belakang, sambil memeluk erat pinggangnya..hahahahaha, gler jauh berpk... so, dengar tu En. Helmi, nanti perbesarkan motor sedia ada tu ye....(perbesarkan motor tu pas kawin tau, jgn perbesarkan skrg)..saya nk naik motor besar dgn awak bila kita da kahwin nanti...nanti saya beli APLHARD, saya xnak duduk blkg (suruh driver bwk).. tapi saya nk dok depan, tmpt penumpang, awak yg bwk..kan awak da janji nk jadi driver saya pas kita kahwin nanti..hehehehe....awak beli motor, awak bawak, saya beli kereta pun, awak bawak jugak ye...hahahahaha...gler jauh berangan2..


Memilik rumah yg besar, dengan erti kata lain BUNGALOW..huhuhu..xnak mengalah..best apa ada rumah besar, tempat tinggal yg selesa..rumah kan, syurga bagi sesebuah keluarga..barulah selesa seisi rumah nanti...kalau rumah besar, mcm2 ada...ada satu library, saya ni ulat buku..kena ada bilik khas utk simpan buku2 saya..nak ada pool...aku rindu zaman g swimming kat pool UiTM dlu...public pool terdedah sgt, malu la saya..& yang paling penting, ada satu bilik khas utk aku n keluarga bersolat, aku ajar anak2 mengaji, suami aku beri taskirah lepas solat...wah..itulah yang dikatakan, rumahku, syurgaku..hohoho...

Aritu jalan2 dengan En. Helmi kat kwsn Ampang, lalu satu kwsn BUNGALOW ni..sekali..

En. Helmi: Awak nak tau, bungalow ni memula siap dlu..RM1 juta lebih je..skrg ni minimum RM2 juta..
Cik Siti: Dahtu, apesal xbeli masa RM1 juta dlu..kan da rugi...

Cam xpuas hati je En.Helmi pandang aku..Gler materialistik perempuan ni..(mungkin tu la dia kata dlm hati kan)....hahahahaha..pastu aku gelak..xpe2..usaha tangga kejayaan...xsalah kan berangan..untuk memotivasikan diri..hahahaha...

Walau bagaimanapun, itu cuma keinginan kita...KEINGINAN, KEPERLUAN dan KEHENDAK adalah 3 perkara yang sgt subjektif . Bagaimana seseorang itu mentafsirkannya bergantung kepada KEMAMPUAN...YA, berbalik kepada KEMAMPUAN kita...tetapi yang paling penting NAWAITU kita......Mungkin bagi org yg terlalu kaya, melebih2 duit kat bank tu...memiliki kereta mewah adalah satu keinginan....tetapi bagi mereka yg dalam kategori hidup secara sederhana, memiliki kereta biasa2 je adalah keperluan..xperlu yg mewah...

AKU??? Keinginan mmg tinggi, biasalah perempuan..nafsu 9, akal 1...nafsu kereta besar, nafsu rumah besar, nafsu shopping, nafsu nak nampak cantik, etc.... walau bagaimanapun..semuanya berbalik kepada diri kita sendiri...yg kat atas tadi tu cume KEINGINAN aku....kita hidup kat dunia ni ada tujuan, ada perhentian...oleh itu, cukuplah sekadar KEPERLUAN aku dipenuhi, tak perlu bermewah2, takut lupa diri, tak perlu bermegah2, takut tak sedar diri, tak perlu beria2, takut kecewa sekiranya keinginan tidak dipenuhi...

BERSYUKURLAH dengan apa yang ada, BERUNTUNGLAH kerana masih punya kesempatan, BERINGATLAH sblom terlambat & BERDOALAH agar keperluan kita untuk hidup sehari2 dapat dipenuhi...

Oleh itu, En. Helmi jangan risau ye..kat atas tu cuma keinginan saya...sebagai manusia, saya hanya mahukan keperluan saya dipenuhi..kalo ada xtra2 nanti, barulah penuhi kehendak dan keinginan saya ye....hehehehehe...

::for the rest of my life::

Cinta Seorang Ayah

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Kahwin is never on my priority list before...

When I finished my degree, in fact before graduated I already listed down all my dreams and ambitions to be achieved. There are long list consists of material and spiritual achievements that I wish to achieve. I am very focus with my dreams, I am very dedicated to achieve what I wants, and I am will make sure all my dreams come true (dengan izin Allah)...

Here are my priority lists:-
1. To finished my MICPA asap (soon...hopefully)
2. To obtained my MBA no matter how late it will be
3. To become manager of EY at the age of 30 (huhuhuhu)
4. To buy car (bought already-no need expensive car coz car is a liability not an asset)
5. To buy house s(investment property-so should be more than 1)
6. To bring my parents to Haj (now I only have chance to bring my mother)
7. To take care of my parents and give them happiness (become a good daughter for mak)
8. To take care of my adik until he graduate
9. To spare my excess money for charity purpose
10. To build charity house for orphanage after SPM (teenage orphanage house-my biggest dream which I wish I can realised it)

By looking at my priority list, its require sacrifactions, it needs full commitment and I really focus towards it.

But it was before, it was before you come to my life, it was before I know your feeling towards me. So, can you imagine how hard it was for me to rearrange my priority list to include you as part of it. That's the reason why I cant accept you at the first place, even tough I also have the same feeling towards you all this while :((... I am a very focus person. I have my target and I really work towards it no matter how hard it is.

When you come to my life, I become blur...I am not sure what to do next, I don't know how to put you under my priority lists, I don't how to fight with my feeling at that time. It's not easy...suddenly I shocked with the situation that happens in my life. I don't know how to act, I am not sure how to face it. I never thought of this thing to happen, I never thought that I have to go through this phase, I never thought of my own family. For me, having a great parents, supportive and lovely sibblings are enough.

Later, i realise....all my thought was wrong.

When angah get married, even tough she stay near to my house, I still feel a lost. She used to be my bestfren, she always there when I need a shoulder to cry on, she always lend me money whenever I need it, she always ready for me. But then, after she got 2 daughters, her commitment towards her family increase, she cant spent more time with me...

Then along get married. Hmmmm...he used to be a lovely brother for me. I am quite pampered to him before. Now, along stay at Johor. Far away from me, can't really spend time with him, can't always meet him. Somemore, he also have his own commitment towards his family. But never mind, I still have mak, ayah (before ayah passed away) & adik at that time.

Adik registered to KPTM...another person left me. I feel quite boring, when I came back from office, I just stay in my room and spending my time so lonely. I always called adik to ask him to come home and have a great chit chat and dinner time with him.

Later, ayah has left me. The person that I love most in this world has left me. This is what its called qada' and qadar. I have to accept it no matter how hard it is. It's true, kita merancang Tuhan yang menentukan. I have planned so many things to be done for mak & ayah, I have so many dreams with them. In fact, all this while what I have done and will doing are for them. For mak & ayah.

Maybe this is a time for me to accept you as part of my life. You can never replace those who have left me. You can never be my ayah for me because he is the greatest one, you can never be my along for me because he is the only older brother that I have in this world and hereafter and you can never be my adik who always cheered my life with his immatured attitudes. But now I am trying to accept the fact that you are going to be my life partner in this world and hereafter. I am trying to put you under my prority lists, I am trying to re-arrange my priority lists so that you will help me and will be on my side to achieve all my dreams.

Hope my dreams will come true and I will not be alone on my way to achieve it. And kahwin and my own family will be my priority list after this. Hehehehehe...

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