Tuesday, May 18, 2010

round table

What is this? This term I was heard for the first time when I first join Ernst & Young 3 years ago. Its sounds nothing, but it will give big impact to the EY's staff.

Today is my first time attending EYTC round table. Huhuhuhu, I was promoted to senior last year, so this year I have the opportunity to take part in the round table to talk about my junior (associate) performance for current year 2010. When I first walk into the meeting room, I feel a bit scared. How the round table will be conducted, what should I say about my junior, can I keep the discussion in the meeting room confidental. There are so many question running inside my head.

The round table run smoothly. I am able to make myself comfortable and participate in the discussion. Now only I know, how is our performance being evaluated. Now only I know how the discussion is take place before they decide whether the individual staff is eligible for promotion or not. Wah, it is such a hard decision to make. Of course as a human being, I have full of symphatetic feelings towards my juniors, but I must tell the superiors the truth so that it will reflect the individual staff actual performance, so that the eligible staff will get promoted and so that those not eligible one will work harder and perform better in the future.

It is such a good experience and I feel very happy because I have the opportunity to participate in the round table discussion this year. After we talk about junior staff, now is senior staff's turn. So that, managers and directors ask us to leave the room and they will start talking about my performance. It's scary man. What they are going to talk about me. What will they say about my performance. Will I get promoted this year. All the questions will be answered end of this year when I am going to receive letter from HR. I dont want to put so much hope, scared I will feel demotivaed when I din get what I expected. I just hope, I will get what I deserve to get.

Just wait & see...

Monday, May 17, 2010

- thanks for your understanding dear, I appreciate it -

Saya : Ayah saya da keluar dari hospital. Kalau buat masa sekarang, saya fokus pada mak ayah saya, awak OK kan? Mungkin kita patut hold dulu tentang kita.

Awak: Itu yang terbaik saya rasa. Jalankan tanggungjawab awak sebagai seorang anak dlu.

Saya: Thanks dear :))


How lucky I am to have you by my side. Thanks for your understanding dear. Thanks for your patient. I appreciate it.

He's back!!!

Finally, on 12 May 2010, ayah has been discharged from hospital Finally, ayah can stay at home. Finally, mak will feel relief with ayah on her side. Hopefully, this time when ayah discharge from hospital he no need to admitted to hospital again. I really hope this time will be the last time ayah admitted to hospital.

All of us waiting for this moments, all of us are very happy when ayah finally can go back home. We promise to take care of him and ensure he will be healthier. I am very happy now, thank God for bringing my father back and everyday without miss I pray to Allah so that ayah's condition willbe improving.

Only from You (Allah), I pray everyday, I am hoping every minutes, I am asking every seconds, hopefully ayah's condition will be better, hopefully mak will be more happy and hopefully we can stay as a happy family like before.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

:: Happy Mother's Day ::

Selamat Hari Ibu teristimewa buat insan yang paling disayangi Fatimah binti Othman. Tiada kata yang dapat menggantikan rasa kasih dan sayang yang ada dalam hati ini untuk mak. Acek terlalu sayangkan mak dan kasih sayang yang ada dalam hati ini tidak dapat digantikan dengan apa2 yang ada di dunia ini. Setiap hari, acek sentiasa berdoa dan memohon pada Tuhan semoga mak dipanjangkan umur dan diberikan kesihatan yang baik.

Sambutan hari ibu pada tahun ini tidak seperti sebelum2nya. Kalau pada tahun2 sebelumnya, meskipun tiada sambutan yang besar, sekurang2nya aku dengan angah akan membeli kek dan kami akan makan sekeluarga bersama2 mak dan ayah. Tapi, pada tahun ini...mesti mak sedih, mesti mak tak seronok. Yelah, ayah terlantar kat hospital, mesti hati mak gundah gelana memikirkan kesihatan ayah.

Tiba2 malam ni aku berasa sangat sedih...tiba2 malam ini aku agak emosional. Sudah sebulan lebih ayah terlantar di hospital. Ini bermakna sudah sebulan lebih ayah tiada di rumah ini. Patutlah apabila aku balik dari kerja bagai ada yang tidak lengkap dirumah ini.

Aku sendiri merasai kekosongan, aku sendiri merasai ketiadaan ayah di rumah ini. Emak apatah lagi...mesti emak terlalu merasai kehilangan ayah. Aku dapat rasakan, setiap kali kitorg nak balik dari hospital, setiap kali mak mencium dahi ayah lepas mak salam ayah, aku dapat rasakan betapa mak rindukan ayah, betapa mak mengharapkan supaya ayah cepat sembuh, betapa mak mengharapkan agar ayah sihat seperti sedia kala.

Kalaulah itu hadiah hari ibu yang mak harapkan, betapa sedihnya rasa hati aku sebab itu adalah hadiah yang tidak dapat aku tunaikan. Acek minta maaf mak, apa yang boleh acek usahakan ialah doa, doa dan terus berdoa kepada Yang Maha Esa semoga apa yang mak harapkan akan tercapai.